Hormones
Strange Country i live in , IRAN ..
it's the end of feb.
and everyone knows even cats CHANGE behavior in this season .
so , in tehran , the things i feel and the things i see has Strange deep impact on me .
i consider myself a male member of the society , and i consider having sex a natural right of my life . spending more than 6-7 years on finding a mate for this purpose ( i Don't like to use sluts , cause i'm not into USING another human being ) i find it extremely hard to find a determine female member of the society, seeking means to quench desires .
and today i saw a strange thing that made me think deeper about myself .
a man was following a woman in a alley i was walking in , then she started to scream and running after the man . ( the man was following her .. at first ) few people stopped the man and the woman hit the man with her shoe . and left ,
the man keept walking and passed by my side , murmuring by himself : " Ok if i don't fuck u someone else will ... "
and he went by .
i suddenly started to think , What am i , Where am i , What the hell is going on , this country is exploding from cultural disasters and Social Sicknesses .
and then i laughed at myself .. " you little fool , are you trying to find a Sex mate in THIS society , where no woman feels safe ... ? "
i kept on thinking ...
what is this NEED ? what is it ? why do i feel the urge to fulfil it , why do i feel like it will be a huge pleasure to Enjoy and give pleasure in a balanced relation .
why is it always like a sin ?
what's wrong with me , or the society or .... ?
and i'm confused , like always ...
it's the end of feb.
and everyone knows even cats CHANGE behavior in this season .
so , in tehran , the things i feel and the things i see has Strange deep impact on me .
i consider myself a male member of the society , and i consider having sex a natural right of my life . spending more than 6-7 years on finding a mate for this purpose ( i Don't like to use sluts , cause i'm not into USING another human being ) i find it extremely hard to find a determine female member of the society, seeking means to quench desires .
and today i saw a strange thing that made me think deeper about myself .
a man was following a woman in a alley i was walking in , then she started to scream and running after the man . ( the man was following her .. at first ) few people stopped the man and the woman hit the man with her shoe . and left ,
the man keept walking and passed by my side , murmuring by himself : " Ok if i don't fuck u someone else will ... "
and he went by .
i suddenly started to think , What am i , Where am i , What the hell is going on , this country is exploding from cultural disasters and Social Sicknesses .
and then i laughed at myself .. " you little fool , are you trying to find a Sex mate in THIS society , where no woman feels safe ... ? "
i kept on thinking ...
what is this NEED ? what is it ? why do i feel the urge to fulfil it , why do i feel like it will be a huge pleasure to Enjoy and give pleasure in a balanced relation .
why is it always like a sin ?
what's wrong with me , or the society or .... ?
and i'm confused , like always ...
posted by Casperious at 11:51 PM
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