I'm Really Stunned.

i live in a country called IRAN ,

this country has so many Strange things inside .
But a point that has just took my attention is..
i can't find a single example of a girl pursuing aims
beyond her outfit and appearances . Not even a motivated boy .

What has happened to us?

.. Maybe I'm wrong..

I'm still living with the hope of a great day .. a day I can find the environment of my guidance school and high school. A place where making things, changing things and pushing the limits were standard motives and standard happenings.
but now I'm stuck .. Between motionless aimless people.. Young people .. At the same age of mine.. But with no tendency to move.

I feel like I belong to the extinct species.

I wish i could find more of my own species ....

Have you ever tried ... ?

have you ever tried to limit yourself to a small office , living and working within it's space , for 18 months ?

i suggest u never try it :))

i tried and it turned out to make a monster out of me .

life cycles.

This has been a known way of human life,
alternation between two opposites.

Western management has always been trying to make most out of people, let say Human Resources, because in many sectors of the business it's People that do the work not the machine…

So they studied and found so many things about behavior of human.

Human Concentration and attention is not a constant behavior.
Normal human needs to have variety in his time cycles
(daily cycles, weekly cycles, monthly cycles and ...)

When we spend sometimes free, we tend to find something to do, and when we spend months doing one thing, we like to have some times free. - This sentence is about people with a purpose in their lives, not aimless useless people… -

and at this point the big problem is revealed.
for intellectuals in Iran, the path has no alternations, cause when they want to have some free time, this means facing Silly members of Basij , this means Wasting time behind traffic , means ZERO social activity and thus we should end up doing 11x10^7 parts puzzles or some other in the house activities , that will alter , and has already altered normal behaviors of many of us , turning us into introverts .

just visit some weblogs and you'll find out ..

http://www.bbc.co.uk/persian/iran/story/2005/11/051101_mf_ba_times.shtml
http://mandm.blogfa.com/
http://www.arashcube.blogspot.com/

Life and progress

one of my friends have just arrived from Austrailia for christmass holidays ..
he is a student there , and studies Animation .

He told me about normal behavior of people there .

he said , in aus. people work 5 days a week, and they work hard , to spend weekends enjoying barbeque and Beer .
he said they usually find him Crazy because he tries to improve his abilities and knowledge by studying animation ( which is a complicated thing to do , compared to Plumbing or selling or working as construction worker ) .

this was one of my greates questions , how come They ( the public mass ) DO live with needs fullfilled and they go for Beer and Food and sex , instead of going for Art , Creativity or Philosophy or Science , or whatever that is considered intellectual ?

Why their Moto's are things like - Live your happy life - or - Enjoy yourself - or - Why bother - .. or ... ?

and i compared them to Our society, Iran , a place where Graduation , and University degrees Talk , and people are measured by the weight of attached Documents showing how much they have studied ...

i suddenly realised HOW Fake we live .
one , intellectual by his/her true self , will go FAR distances , when he/she is Financially supported and will move frontiers in his/her field .
but we have learnt to Fake it like everything else we DO fake ( faith , islam , love , respect , ... )
we fake it because we learnt to respect Socalled society rules instead of being ourselves .

and those who live there .. have learnt to be themselves .
the flesh of the society , covered by a supporting government , will work and enjoy it's life , and keeps the big wheels rolling , and those Exceptionals , will be Supported Adequetly , to move further on their own , and rise the standards on human understandings and life , For the society .

but in iran , dependent of the level of your mental dirt , and your ability to show off and tell lies , you are entitled to have more opportunities to ruin the society and promote your ownself Financially .

sample : put on some beard , try to add some words of islam to your speakings , and .. you'll have your paperwork done FAST , you'll have your Loans and financial supports , and you can sail this corruption lake .

and if you try to be your self , it's a desert out there , find your shelter , or the sun will burn you , and cold night will freez you dead .


.....

Stir me :)

What is it with me ?

when i see a new movie ,
when i see a new paiting .

when i see views of Arcitecture ,
when i talk to Special people .

i feel lost, i feel like they've put all my toughts in a mixer and stirred me at full speed .
and then , back to the real world i'm no longer the same , yet i'm the same .


jan 2006